The Twinkie!
5March 24, 2014 by 43andfatfree and RobertRoyston.net
The other day my son said to me in a gas station store “Dad is that a Twinkie? Didn’t they stop and then re-start making those?” I said “Yup it was all over the news” Well then he wanted to try one. Now my kids don’t have sweet tooth’s so I was ok with it. So as some of you know or don’t know they come in a two pack which means there may be one left over of he doesn’t like it. Well as expected he ate the one, kinda liked it, but didn’t want the second. I went to throw it away and he said “Dad don’t you like them?” I said, “I do like them but I can’t have it” so here is the rest of the conversation B for Bobby R for me…
B: Why can’t you just have one, its not going to make you gain weight?
R: Because Bobby I can’t just have one.
B: Yes you can, there is only one left, and you couldn’t have two even if you wanted.
R: The problem son is that tomorrow I’ll be alone in the car and will stop at a store and buy more, then again the next day and so on.
B: Really? You can’t just have one and be ok with it.
R: I wish Bobby, but no I can’t I’m just not that strong yet.
B: So your body strong but not mind strong about Twinkies Dad??
R: Kinda… you see son as long as I’m strong enough not to eat it I’m ok. I lose my strength once I start eating it.
B: Well then throw it away Dad cause I like that you’re happy with not being big anymore!
It ended with Love you son, and Love you Dad, but really made me think about the way food can become so powerful that you cant just have one. I can’t and this past weekend was proof. I had one bite of Key lime cheesecake and poof I ate half the pie out of the tin… I am not exaggerating that’s what happened, but it didn’t stop there. The same friend brought us Tiramisu as well and I ate three restaurant size helpings in the course of a day and a half. I couldn’t stop!! Then on the plane ride home crackers and cheese that were leftover that I had packed instead of throwing away, then when I got home even more… a plate of Nachos… OMG Stop… but I couldn’t Nicola went to bed and saw none of this, but plate of nachos, glass of almond milk, weight watchers brownie, and two pieces of bread with butter later I was going to bed sick to my stomach. I couldn’t stop until I felt sick… AAARRRRGGGGHHH
So yes I can’t have one Twinkie, not yet! But to my readers I woke up angry and ready… ready to fight the urge today… ready to hit the gym and burn off the food… ready to fight the urge today to continue the path I had started on yesterday… and today I won!!! So maybe just maybe after today’s victory I can someday just have ONE. Although for now I wont test those waters again anytime soon.
-43&FF
43andfatfree Blog 
Wow what a powerful conversation with your son. Great job! Good luck in your weight loss journey! I’ll be following you. I’m in school to become a registered dietitian so you might find my blog useful at http://whatmattersnutrition.wordpress.com/
interesting well written story Robert. A couple hints stand out 1.) You spent time getting yourself in the good shape your in. I found that a good workout goes a long way towards inhibiting cravings as when your finished training one tends to count calories more because of the possible wasted workout and also makes eating junk not feel good. That is the only possible help i can give. 2.) I find it amusing that I call myself Bob or Bobby and refer to my 5 yr old son as Robert, and you guys do the exact opposite.
Such a powerful message, Robert…….I am going to take heed of this…..just for today! Thank you for sharing your powerful journey.
Naomi
As I watched you and Nicola perform this weekend at Peach State, I thought about your blog and the journey you have taken. You and Nicola did a very physically demanding routine and you did not even appear to be out of breath. You have inspired me to begin my journey. Thank you!
I had the same experience when I broke my diet and ate some creamy pasta dish at a friends party. I took home the leftovers, which included cake, and ate everything the next day. Then I got fast food the next day, and I eat more junk the next day, and so on….2 weeks later, I’m eating greasy takeout food. I read things like “it’s ok to treat yourself once in a while,” but I think treating myself makes the cravings worse. For now, it’s too slippery of a slope. I’m stronger when I deny myself the treats. I’m glad to know that others struggle with this too.